Strong stuff at the bottom of a Chart
In January and February of this year Saturn traverses Gate 30. From Jan 22-27 Saturn activated Channel 30-41 with the Sun, with Venus becoming part of it too. From 13-18 Feb we see Sun and Saturn both in Gate 30, with Mercury in Gate 41 to activate the same Channel. I find it a good reason to have a deeper look at this Gate and Channel, which is the conduit for how desire brings things into being.
The Human Design name of Gate 30 is desire, while its Gene Key frequencies are Desire, Lightness, and Rapture. Desire is the emotional driven energy of consciousness that wants to return home. For whatever mysterious reason. Christians call it sin, while in the east Hindus have called it Leela, God’s play or the divine play. In the act of creation, consciousness has separated from itself, and here it is in the form and wanting to return, wanting to become one again. In Gate 30 the collective evolution uses us individuals as an instrument for this grand design.
Channel of Recognition
Now, in Human Design on the other side of Channel 30-41 is Gate 41. Its Gene Key frequencies are Fantasy, Anticipation and Emanation. Here we find the invitation from the Earth to realize something, to bring it to the material plane. The name of this Channel is Recognition. It’s like the desire wants also to take form. The ancient Chinese name for Gate 30 is the clinging fire. Desire is seen as the clinging fire. This happens when the mind takes hold of this energy, and rides it, and attaches it to a certain object or person. The mind wants the desire to be fulfilled. This brings anxiety: shall I make it, or will I fail? Even if the desire is fulfilled, another one will take its place, and the mechanism restarts.
The dilemma of desire
Essentially this is consciousness that wants to return to its source, while at the same time it attaches itself to outer objects. The energy of desire moves us all, without exception. It is an intrinsic part of the play of life. Denying it is to say no to our own life force. Saying yes to it takes us away from ourselves. How to resolve this dilemma?
On the one hand, this is existence working through us to complete its cosmic motion. On the other hand, desire is an outer manifestation of something inner. This is where the Gene Keys gift frequency of Lightness comes in, which says: ‘Yes we know that it is an inner move, and at the same time it will be reflected in the outer.’
Desire is to be honored. It’s a beautiful energy. But now we are not attached to the result. We know the result is not really what makes us happy. What makes us happy is to be aware of the energy that is stirred up through the desire. This energy, in its wish to fulfill something, is like a fire, and when there is no object left it will merge with the light which it is longing for. Even when that’s a bit mystical, it fits in the context, right?
Pushing against Saturn
So that is the energy here. With Saturn, if you push the desire too much, or if you limit yourself and if you don’t honor the pure fire, Saturn’s going to do something. Saturn is the Guardian of the threshold in the ancient astrologers’ language. The threshold of the inner world. At the end of the way is the door to the inner world. So, if you don’t recognize that, you’ll get attached to the object of the desire. Even if it’s a noble desire, like I want to put a meditation center together so people can come and find themselves. Or I want a tantric love affair. Or even if I want to have several million dollars to do good works. Or just for myself. And when you push it and push it, Saturn will stop you.
If you push, you may find, with Saturn and Sun in the same Gate, that suddenly there’s an obstacle. And if you try to push through that obstacle, you may stumble and fall on your face. That is what literally happened to me. Don’t blame the obstacle. Don’t even blame Saturn. He’s just teaching a lesson here. With Lightness we can live out the desire-energy while remaining playful about it.
Giving yourself to rapture
At the highest frequency you find Rapture and that is the Siddhi of Gate 30, when the desire courses through you. And you are not in the way, it’s just the desire of existence itself. Then you are in the state of rapture. You let yourself just be taken and that desire will find its flow and will find its way into realization as it wants to happen. This is also how it reconnects to the Siddhi of the 41, Emanation. These are things that want to come out of the void and into this existence, and the rapture of desire is the instrument. In this state, there is also an understanding that the object is not separate from the inner anyway. It is all a manifestation of consciousness. Perhaps the Hindu concept of divine play hits the mark here.